I Want to Be Wanted: Infidelity and Breast Cancer
Meet Martha, one of 19 people coached by Dr. Huizenga and part of his “19 Live Infidelity Coaching Sessions.”
You will learn:
how Martha and her husband rebuild after an affair and breast cancer
Here’s Martha’s summary of her situation:
My situation is that on February 23, 2007, I discovered that my husband was cheating on me with a co-worker. He started the affair in September 2006 while I was undergoing chemotherapy for metastatic breast cancer. At the moment, I am in remission and stopped chemotherapy in December. We have been together for 18 years and married for 14 years. This is the first time he has cheated on me. I am absolutely devastated and want to save this marriage. However, I am struggling with feelings of anger, mistrust, and hurt. I often wake up at night to grill or yell at my husband about the affair, which I fear is driving him further away from me. He says he stopped the affair as soon I found out and that he wants to stay with me. Unfortunately, he vacillates about how he feels about me. That is: he loves me; he wants to love me again; he’s not sure how he feels about me. I am on an emotional roller coaster.
My goal is to be happy again and not feel all these negative and destructive feelings. I want our marriage to be good again and for our deep love and connection to return.
Dr. Huizenga’s review of the Laser Coaching Session:
1. Not only does Martha face her husband’s affair, she also is recovering and rebuilding her physical and emotional strength after major breast cancer and surgery. Talk about a double whammy!
2. On the audio you hear the strength of Martha in her voice. Her voice is clear and focused. She obviously has discovered and called forth her internal resources to manage, care for her self and make crucial decisions during this trying time of her life.
It seems as if her husband handled the trauma differently.
Was the affair a form of avoidance? Was it his attempt to emotionally remove himself from Martha’s pain and his own? Did he hit some sort of emotional wall with the affair being a misguided attempt, on one level, to cope?
We don’t know, since Martha reports that he discloses little about his journey through her illness.
We do know that once Martha discovered the affair, he stopped cold turkey, stated he loved her and committed to the relationship.
3. The audio session with Martha occurs during a shift in their relationship.
Martha describes a recent history of anger, reactivity and fighting. Martha experienced flashbacks regarding the affair which often lead to accusations and anger pointed at him.
Those episodes have subsided.
Martha describes attempts to meet his needs. She tries to make life easier and better for him. She REALLY wants the marriage to work.
The relationship is also marked by Martha pursuing her husband, attempting to elicit affirmation from him.
Specifically, Martha needs to feel deep within her that she is wanted, emotionally, sexually, as a woman. She wants to feel and think of herself as beautiful.
One can certainly understand this need. Meeting this need is crucial to Martha rebuilding her inner life.
Her husband is there, somewhat. When Martha pursues, asks questions, initiates intimacy or seeks affirmation from him, he typically backs away or withdraws.
His most telling statement: “I’m fearful of losing you, and cannot come too close.” (Paraphrase)
There IS a tremendous risk in truly loving someone, because at some point you WILL lose that person. Truly loving someone is the most courageous act of your lifetime.
4. So, how do Martha and her husband recover from the affair, the removal of both breasts and build of life of deeper intimacy on all levels? How do they overcome the fear, confusion and pain?
Pursuing and distancing does not work.
Martha and I focus in the last few minutes of the session to focus on safer, perhaps more productive ways for her to approach her husband.
I teach Martha a way to state (by meta-commenting) what she really wants to say in a way that will be safe for both of them and invite his participation.
It would seem both want to collaboratively experience healing, but, at this point, aren’t sure how to accomplish that.
To hear the “Martha” tape, check out this box:
19 Live Infidelity Coaching Sessions
with Dr. Huizenga – The Infidelity coach
- shift your focus away from the pain
- see the issues rather than feel the issues
- feel good about your progress and strength
- clear the cobwebs, get the clear picture
- build your skills for your next intensee encounter
- learn how to act with power and integrity not react out of neediness and weakness
You will receive:
- 19 live coaching interveiws 15-20 minutes long with a variety of people coping with different kinds of extramarital affairs. (Over 5 hours of listening.)
- A workbook containing:
- an introduction to each situation by either Dr. Huizenga or the coachee
- an extensive summary and comments by Dr. Huizenga about the session
- dozens of comments from others, like you, who have listened the tape, offering their input, words of wisdom or personal experience.
- The ability to listen to the tapes online.
- The ability to download the tapes onto CD or MP3 format.